Full-Blown Pain: A Personal Struggle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by quick shocks, similar to electric shocks. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with intense discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Attacks usually begin with sudden, severe pain around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like many causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international medical societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some people.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Jeffery Sharp
Jeffery Sharp

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